Mother-To-Be or Mother-Not-To-Be, that is the question.

our struggles with infertility

March 06, 2006

IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN EVENTUALLY

I'm sick.

Normally, especially this time of the year, I am sick all the time. I have a long history with my asthma and allergies and ordinarily I catch EVERYTHING. Usually by March I've been through at least my fourth or fifth cold of the winter. Instead, this year, the last time I had a cold was December 2 - my due date. It is odd that I haven't been sick before now, too, because EVERYONE I see on a regular basis has been repeatedly sick - my husband, my daughter, my sister Eileen, her daughter Kayleigh, my mother...I've even commented about how freaky it is that all this illness was surrounding me and I hadn't caught anything yet.

Until now.

The problem is, or what I should say is the hard part is, how am I going to take care of Amanda and NOT give her my cold? Before I had the baby, on days like this I would just stay in bed and pull the sheets over my head. And honestly, I couldn't care less that I can no longer do that. I barely care that I am sick, aside from the fact that I worry about giving it to her. I mean, my God, the kid had a cold, then she got colic, then she got another cold...at the moment, she is healthy and colic-free and HAPPY AS CAN BE. She is an absolute dream to spend time with, she is such a happy baby and she deserves to be this way for more than just a few days. If she gets sick because of ME I am going to flip my lid.

Oh, yeah, on a totally random and unrelated note, I could not find the picture of my college dorm room. Not yet, anyways. But in my search I came across a photo of me, my senior year of High School, with the BIGGEST HAIR IN THE WORLD.

Can you tell it was the 80's? Jesus Christ! And the sad thing is, "perms" and big teased hair are coming back in style...did we learn NOTHING the first time around with this Aquanet free-for-all? Not a good look, no siree.

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