97 DAYS TO GO!

I thought it was about time I added the ticker to my blog. I have had this ticker posted elsewhere for my own personal viewing since week 5, but felt as though if I posted it here I would be jinxing the pregnancy, asking for trouble, etc. I am really truly only now feeling comfortable with this whole thing. I know that something bad still could happen, but when every book I am reading and a nurse I was speaking with at a party last week all tell me that if Mandy had to be born today she has a good chance of survival, it makes me start to believe that this is real, and not a cruel joke. Odds are very good that I am going to have a real live baby soon.

Speaking of, when the hell is this nesting instinct going to kick in? I keep waiting, but it hasn't hit me yet. One of these days I really ought to start setting up the nursery. But I can't do it. I don't know why. Procrastination? Maybe. Denial? Maybe. Laziness? Probably.

As of next Friday I enter the 3rd Trimester. I hope these maternal instincts kick in soon, because so far I don't feel any more ready for a baby then I did a year ago. The reality of this whole thing is still remarkably elusive.