YOU GET WHAT YOU PAY FOR

So we're going to have sex tonight. Not really newsworthy in and of itself, I know that. Here's the thing - we're going to have sex with the intent of getting pregnant. Again, not newsworthy, I know that. Here's the newsflash - it is day 7 of my cycle. Day 7! Most months I haven't even finished my period by day 7 (I know, too much information AND yes poor me, my period is normally longer than 7 days).

The point is, my $250 investment (the fertility monitor) indicated that I am HIGHLY fertile on this day, day 7.

I am instructed to have sex tonight, as chances are "high" that I will conceive on my HIGHLY fertile days.

Could this be the simple solution? Have we just not been trying early enough in my cycles?

I will be flabergasted if this is the case. And I will stop bitching about the $250 bucks, because clearly I should have made the investment a long, long time ago.

I'M GOING WITH MY GUT

It is inexplicable, but out of nowhere I have hope. I have hope based on little more than a gut feeling. My gut is telling me I am going to get pregnant this summer.

I have absolutely no reason to feel this way whatsoever, so where is this coming from? Can anyone explain this to me?

I am not religious, and I am a huge skeptic.

But I've got a gut feeling, and I am feeling hopeful for the first time in a long time.

I'm going to be pregnant soon, and somehow I just know this.

IT'S MY HOLIDAY, TOO

So this morning when we woke up, Anthony turned to me and said "this is the last mother's day that you won't be a mother." "You promise?" I said back to him. He had no reply. Don't make promises to me that you can't keep, I'm thinking. But I don't say this aloud, because I know he means well.

In a way I feel like it is my day too, though. I mean, I should get some credit for TRYING to be a mother for two years now, right? There are some lousy parents out there, and here I am trying with all my might and everything I have for many many months on end to become a parent, and hope to be the best mom I can be. Yes, today can be my holiday too.

I'm off to get ready to celebrate with my mom and with my sister, new mom-to-be. Happy Mother's Day to anyone out there who may happen upon my blog, who happens to be a mom.

And, Happy Trying-REALLY-Hard to become a mother's day to me, and to all other women out there in the same boat. We deserve some credit too, and if not on Mother's Day, then when?