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February 09, 2005

OK, I'LL STOP COMPLAINING NOW...

Today has been a significantly less frustrating day. I guess I was just so annoyed yesterday because I have the week off, and I was looking forward to relaxing and having a lot of fun this week. And yesterday was just NOT fun.

But in the grand scheme of things, this week has been not only fun overall, but also very productive. Beginning with my fabulous weekend in New York, which was just perfect! The weather could not have been better for early February. It was almost springlike. I got myself 3 new bags and a pair of sunglasses. Our hotel room had a fabulous view overlooking Times Square from the 26th floor. My favorite bar did not disappoint. All in all a fun weekend.

Monday I was able to spend the whole day with Kayleigh. Got to do the same thing today. I don't get to see her as much as I would like to, because my sister Eileen and her husband have a dog. I am highly allergic to dogs and cats, and I can't be in their house for more than five minutes. So unfortunately it isn't like I can just go over and visit Kayleigh whenever I want to - it depends on when Eileen is able to bring Kayleigh to ME. So, knowing that I have this week off, she is making an extra effort to give me a chance to spend time with her, which I greatly appreciate. I am going to see her again on Friday night when the whole family goes out for dinner for mom's birthday. And then Kayleigh is sleeping over my parent's house on Saturday night, so I am sure I will be there MOST of the night and Sunday morning. Because I can't get enough of the damn kid. I mean, look at that face!


sweet Kayleigh Posted by Hello

As much as I want a baby, I am discovering the pure joy of being an aunt. I get all of the good, and none of the bad. Like when she did a NASTY poop today, all I had to do was hold her hands while she cried (so she wouldn't get shit on them) while Eileen changed the diaper. That's easy!

Tomorrow they are now saying instead of a blizzard we may just get a rainstorm, so my pilgrimage to IKEA may still be on after all.

Not to mention while I have been off this week I was able to have our builders come through for our 60-day walk through. (we've been living here exactly two months TODAY! I can't believe it!) We had a cracked patched up with plaster yesterday, and some cabinet doors in the kitchen replaced today. Things that otherwise either Anthony or I would have had to take the day off for.

I also came home from the gym this morning to a voicemail from the clinic. "Dawn, please call us when you can." Those types of messages always make me hold my breath when dialing back, because I always assume there is bad news waiting for me on the other end of the phone. Au contraire, they were letting me know that our insurance has covered me for my next two IVF cycles, they must be both completed by July 23rd to qualify. This was a huge sigh of relief, because it meant now I could order my meds for my next round of injections. Which I did. And they will be here tomorrow. Wow.

Sometimes I can't believe we are already doing IVF #3. My insurance carrier covers me for 6 IVF cycles in my LIFETIME. I am already at the halfway mark. It is a little scary to think about, but all in all it is such a major benefit that I even have full coverage so I really shouldn't dwell on things such as limitations, right?

Yes, all in all it is a good week. The calm before the storm, even. Because I know what awaits me on Monday. When I start my "new" job at my "old" company. It is going to be interesting for sure.

And it is probably going to be the first Valentine's Day that Anthony doesn't send me flowers at work, because of where it is that I am going to work. He can be strange like that, but it is okay. I don't even mind.

Things are good.

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February 08, 2005

MY TOP TEN LIST FOR TODAY

Top Ten Things That Royally Pissed Me Off Today:

10. I woke up with another sore throat. It feels exactly like the start of the flu I got after my egg retrieval. I am not prepared to get sick AGAIN!

9. I have more laundry to do than the MGM Grand Hotel & Casino.

8. While backing my stupid car out of the garage and down the driveway (a driveway which, by the way, is steeper than the Superman Rollercoaster ride at Magic Mountain), I cut the steering wheel too much and backed into a six foot snowbank.

7. I couldn't get the car unstuck for an hour. AN HOUR. Talk about embarrassing!

6. Once the car was unstuck, I stopped for lunch at a deli, where I ran into a manager from the company I just quit last Friday. Having already gone through all of my good-byes last week, I really just wasn't in the mood for the idle chit-chat. (Man, I guess I am just bitchy today, huh?)

5. Arrived at 1:00PM to an auto shop to get the devil-car a new inspection sticker. It wasn't done until 2:30PM. And there was no wait. An hour and a half for a god damned inspection sticker??

4. Some asshole in a jeep wasn't paying attention when he pulled out of a side street, and he nearly sideswiped me. He then blasted through a stop sign on a school bus, nearly plowing down three kindergarten aged children. Idiot!!!!!

3. There is still six feet of snow in front of my house and we're getting ANOTHER blizzard on Thursday!!!!! And I was supposed to go to IKEA on Thursday, dammit!!!

2. It seems we have a fly problem, as flies suddenly are swarming out of our heating vents in every room in our house.

1. I was stuck behind an old lady on the road today driving slower than molasses. The bumper sticker on her car, no lie, read "DRIVE 25 MPH." Yeah, thanks for the warning!!!!!

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February 06, 2005

DYNASTY?

You bet your ass we're a dynasty!

Dy-no-mite!!

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